Wednesday, August 26, 2009

First Day of School Pictures

Becca getting ready to leave for school with ALL of her supplies.

Becca finding her name on the door of her classroom.

Her desk

James with his backpack, ready to leave for school.

Walking down the hallway to his classroom.

Playing with the cars in his classroom.

Drawing Mommy a picture.

No pictures of Bradley..."he's too old" for that!!! What's a Mom to do??

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Back to the Why!!

So, my mom's cancer is back...why?? Why?? Why?? Why?? I just don't understand, the 1 person in the whole world that would give up everything she had for anyone in the world. How does this happen to that person? My mom is my best friend, and I am SO scared that something bad is going to happen to her. I don't know what to think, what to do, and what to say. Just...why??

We go this week for a CT scan and to meet 2/4 doctors that are going to do her surgery. She is going to have a VERY invasive surgery that will leave her without function of 2 bodily functions. She will have a colostomy bag and possibly a bag for urine, or a permenant catheter that she will have to clip/unclip when she needs to empty her bladder. Hopefully once the surgery is over they will have gotten enough "margin", but if not...she will have to do chemo. OMG!! Her surgery is suppose to be 10-12 hours, how do I sit in that hospital for that long?? She will be over in Springfield for probably 1-2 weeks recovering, how do I sit over there and watch her in pain?? Then when she comes home she will be home recovering for months, how do I help her?? What do I do??

Why does this have to be happening?? Why??